Anyone with disabilities have this problem??

I HAVESPASTIC CEREBRAL PALSY WHICH AFFECTS ALL FOUR OF MY LIMBS. I FEEL VERY DEPRESSED IN THE MORNINGS, I DEPEND ONCAREGIVERS 24/7. I LAY IN BED IN THE MORNINGS AND CANT GET UP ON MY OWN. I LAY THERE IN MY URINE SOAKED DIAPER, DROOLING, MY ARMS AND LEGS MOVING UNCONTROLABLY AND I CAN NOT DO ANYTHING UNTIL SOMEONE COMES AND MOVES ME. I AM NON VERBAL AND ONLY COMMUNICATE WITH A COMPUTER SO I CAN'T LET ANYONE KNOW I AM UP. THIS IS THE MOST DEPRESSING PART OF MY LIFE AND I WAS WONDERING IF ANYONE ELSE FELT THIS WAY OR HAD THS PROBLEM??